Life is so complicated. Work, home, children, relationships, marriage, health, love.. everything can be so consuming. I tend to get lost in the whirlwind at times. I’m only human. I know that nothing worth something comes easy hence my busy lifestyle. I’ve learned that. And through life’s lessons, my mistakes and accomplishments I grow closer and closer to knowing myself better each day.
The other night, as my family slept, I laid wide awake. Scary thoughts danced through my mind.
Am I rushing through this thing called life? Oh no..
Am I one of those people who only live for Fridays? God forbid!
Am I wasting time? There isn’t enough time.
I’m afraid of a lot of things but at the same time I know that if I want to be a conqueror of this thing called life I must overcome my fears. Boy am I afraid. I’m afraid of failure. I’m afraid I don’t give my child enough time. I’m afraid all of my hard work goes unnoticed. But that’s human no?
Scared stiff, I stared into the silence. And in that silent darkness I found some answers. I learned that it’s O.K. That nothing ever goes as planned but if I stay focused I can do anything. That if I love unconditionally I will be alright.
I prayed and fell asleep but for some reason I’m so thankful for that silence. As scary and awakening as that moment was I know that in the moment of fear and confusion I grew stronger.
Silence is a source of great strength. -Lao Tzu