I wrote this post because I am one of many women like Carol, who know it’s not easy to BARE IT ALL….
As I searched online this weekend for a bathing suit to wear on my Spring Break vacation to Puerto Rico, I took a moment to reflect and actually realize what I was doing. I was looking to buy a two-piece!
O.K. maybe not some skimpy, stringy thing but a chic and modest two-piece (is that an oxymoron?) bright and sunny swimsuit. Something similar to what I wore last summer. You see, this was a BIG DEAL for me. If I tell you how many years it’s been since I last wore a two-piece you’d probably need assistance picking up your mouth from the floor.
Will I tell you? Hmm.. Let’s just say it was WAY TOO LONG.
My mid-section was deprived from the sun for many years. The complex I developed was way more serious than I thought until it hit me, the moment I purchased a two-piece. After letting go of the fatty foods, eating in moderation and exercising reguarly – my love for myself grew stronger.
It all started last summer as I skimmed through the swim suit racks in a clothing store. Accompanied by my girlfriend, I picked up a two-piece and put it back after saying something negative about myself. An older woman, she must’ve been in her late 60’s saw what I just did and gave me some great advice. She said, “Honey, you are young and beautiful, show off that beautiful young skin! I sure do.” I smiled and reflected. Why am I so scared to wear a damn two-piece?
I made the concious decision to pick that pretty bathing suit back up and walk to the register. I’m not going to lie, it was pretty nerve wracking as I placed it on the counter and finalized my transaction and decision. My girlfriend told me, “You better wear it!” LOL
When I got home I tried it on for my husband and daughter. It was, after all, the first time my daughter saw me in a two-piece. It was just as surprising to me as it was to her, believe me. Scared and confused as to why I even decided to buy it. I walked out to model my bare mid-section.
I have to be honest with you, it felt great and almost liberating. As I saw my reflection in my dresser’s mirror, that floral bandeau top, the perfect high waisted bikini bottom, beautiful me – it felt good. In that moment I felt like I conquered my fears and insecurities that deprived my mid-section from ever seeing the sun. I wore my two-piece proudly on my cruise last year. It almost made me feel stupid as to why I waited so long to bare it all. All the beaches I’ve visited, all the pools I’ve swam in, all the sun my poor mid-section missed out on – ay bendito.
And yes, a hot bod is a great but self-confidence is even hotter! So on that note, turn off those negative thoughts and let all your sections see the sun this season.